“Want” is not a prerequisite of responsibility.

I've always known this, but I’ve never actually contextualised it before.

For example, whether you want to or not, it’s your responsibility to go to work, do the job and do it right.

I’ve always been the kind of person to “just get on with it” in almost every aspect of my life because nothing gets done if nothing gets done. I learned at a young age that, as a man, what you feel doesn’t matter - especially when there’s shit to be done, and it’s your responsibility. So, when life gives me lemons, just make the damn lemonade - don’t complain about the lemons.

Do the job now; deal with how you feel later.

I don’t believe this is a bad thing because it’s taught me to maintain order in challenging situations and persevere, which made me strong.

However, the unfortunate side-effect is that “later” never comes. Life has this funny way of giving you more lemons right after you’ve made the lemonade - often before you’ve even tasted the first batch and almost always before you’ve cleaned up the mess you made making the lemonade.

Now, there’s a heap of lemon skins to deal with, and I just don’t have the time or the energy to deal with them.

Or maybe I don’t want to…

“Want” is not a prerequisite of responsibility.

So, maybe I have to.

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